Late Night Feelings

It's 11:59 and I'm wide awake,

Eyes stinging and red and for some

Reason I cant get you out of my head.

I lie here awake staring straight up

And what do i see?

Nothing but my shadow looking down upon me

I lie here awake hoping for a miracle

For me to drift off into my fantasy world.

Where no pain exists only happiness resides,

Where love and laughter brew and where fear hides.

But I'm still lying awake doubting that this time

My dreams will take me away.

It wouldn't be the first time so I'm not surprised,

I think about you a lot... I just cant keep you out of my mind.

It's frustrating to me how I go round in circles

I try and repel you from my thoughts

But then you come back stronger in my mind and haunt what I feel.

I doubt you think as in depth as me

You don't know true love but you know how to make it hurt.

You twist what I feel and turn it into a weapon

And then use it against me until it burns.

I want to leave my thoughts in the past,

But every time I lay eyes upon you

The emotions come flooding back.

Broken Hearts

My heart is broken
And I feel out of place
Words left unspoken
That fill an empty space.

When night comes around
And darkness falls, the tears
Start falling all over again
My heart that was filled with love
Is now broken, never to be fixed.

I thought you loved me
For that's what I heard,
Felt and saw with my own eyes
So why did it end the way it did?
'Cause you had to say "I'd rather us be good friends."

People always told me to never fear
And to "never be afraid to fall in love."
But the problem I have,
And the mistake I made
Is that no -one told me
"Once you fall in love, there's no way out."

I was always told that
Love would have a happy ending,
Similar to the ones in the fairy tales
The ones which I used to read as a child.
But then reality came up and hit me in the face
Love is nothing more than a mystery.

I would have liked to have known
From the time I started
That the road ahead wasn't going to be easy
'Cause that way at least
I wouldn't be in the pain i'm in.

Forever and Ever

Family and friends told me to give up
Go home, and try to move on
But that’s not me, to give up so quick.
I’m that solider who always pressed on
Helping himself but also his team, I fear
That now I have strayed from that path
I abused myself trying to forget the pain,
I wasn’t strong enough to do it alone
But instead of asking for help, I
Suffered and moaned, rejected my
Friends when they were just trying to help,
Help me overcome this bump in the road
Yet I couldn’t even give them that.
You need your friends, you can’t do it alone
They’ll set you straight and guide you home,
Comfort you in times like these, share some secrets
And share the pain. I feel blessed to have friends
Like these, I hope they know I wished them no harm
So from here on in we shall all remain calm,
Keep our cool under pressure, take a deep breath
And just remember we are all here for one another
And that’s why it’s going to stay,
Forever and ever!

Time and Her Healing

They say that time is the best
Way to heal, so why is it
My heart still weeps and moans?
I cry alone in the middle of the night
In the corner of my room, my hands
Catching the tears that fall from my face.
I thought I was over you, I believed
I saw the light at the end of tunnel
But it was my mind playing tricks.
Why is it your spell is still cast?
My love for you is still as strong
But maybe everything I thought was wrong,
I should never have made such a fools mistake.
But now I know that to regret things in life
Is nature I guess, but the way you told me
Could have been said with a bit more heart
And a lot less stress. Now we avoid each other,
We hardly talk. This not what we wanted, no,
Not at all. But the tension between us is so great
That not even time and her healing could fix
The broken emptiness that exists.

Late Night Tears

I told her that I loved her
And I told her how I felt.
In my mind I hoped and prayed
That she would say the same
But I was wrong, she just said
She wants to remain friends
I respect her decision.
I just wish I had listened
To the thoughts in my head,
So now I lie here in my bed
Looking back at the messages sent
I read that message too many times
It’s funny to me how the next day it seemed to
Rain and pour, and my heart was doing the same
It’s like you cut it with a knife
And you seem to not care
That night I lost a piece of myself
You say that now I have no heart
And your right I don’t
For I gave it to you.

Love and Pain

I love you, but do you love me?
Do you even care how I feel?
Did you know I cry every night for you?
Do you ever cry for me?
I don't think you do,
I don't think you even care or want to know.
I just want to stop caring, crying and loving you.
I thought I found the one,
I thought you were worth all my tears,
And all of my love.
But I thought wrong.
I let everything go and I can't get it back!
I feel like I having nothing to live for anymore.
You tore my heart to a thousand pieces,
Then you threw them on the ground,
Stomped on them until nothing was left.
All I feel and all I'll ever feel is pain,
Pain knowing that I gave away all my love
And now I have none left for myself for when I need it most.
I don't know what to do, or what to feel.
I feel alone, like there is nobody to turn to
I have nothing more to give,
For I gave it all to you.

Sorrows and Dreams

You sit and watch me cry
Knowing the pain I am in
I am unable to show emotions
Until the endless tears begin.
A piece of me is dieing
And lying on the floor
The dreams I had are over
And can only be no more
If sadness shown like beauty
I'd be brighter than the sun
Gazed upon by wondering eyes
And loved by everyone.

Loving a Friend

I never really knew you

You were just another friend

But when I got to know you,

I let my heart unbend.

I couldn't help past memories

That would only make me cry

I had to forget my first love

And give love another try

So I've fallen in love with you

And I'll never let you go

I love you more than anyone

I just had to let you know

And if you ever wonder why

I don't know what I'll say

But I'll never stop loving you

Each and every day

My feelings for you will never change

Just know my feelings are true

Just remember one thing

I Love You!

The Best of Friends

The best of friends,

Can change a frown,

Into a smile,

When you feel down.

The best of friends,

Will understand,

Your little trials,

And lend a hand.

The best of friends,

Will always share,

Your secret dreams,

Because they care.

The best of friends,

Worth more than gold,

Give all the love,

A heart can hold.